I find myself less depressed than I think I should be. I mean the symptoms are still there (lack of appetite, insomnia, anhedonia, etc.) but the sadness isn't. No crying or anything like that. In its place there is a bitterness and a tempered anger. It's like the crippling loneliness that I've been suffering from... Continue Reading →
The first line of this poem is from a Stephen Sondheim musical number and served as inspiration for the rest of it.
A poem about that thing that thing that keeps finding me, heartbreak. Maybe I'll finally beat it one day.
They say those born under the Aquarius sign are people oriented who do great in big groups but also tend to avoid emotional expression. Interesting combo.
I can't sleep. I haven't slept in a few days. I can't eat. I haven't ate anything other than gum and a few chips that the kids wanted me to try. My therapist had a meeting so we had to reschedule so I haven't had any personal communication with anyone since we stopped talking and... Continue Reading →
I don't know what this post is about. Venting? Catharsis perhaps? As I tap away at the smooth glass surface of my digital appendage my thoughts and feelings cycle though my mind. That prison-like factory that is oh so efficient at producing rumination and all its toxic byproducts. What am I obsessing over tonight, you... Continue Reading →
The time ticks by A million suns set slowly Stars blink out forever As we walk through life lonely Voices then whisper A fragile peace then breaks Something that died long ago Returns with a soul quake That girl at work reminds me of your smile She also has your hair Reminds me of those... Continue Reading →